1,001 Beautiful Things: Days 32-38

Accepting that people change. My family has had an insanely difficult time realizing that I am not what they want me to be — I am far more intense than they are, and for a while I tried to calm it down. Lately, I have just been myself, let them do/say what they want and not taking it too personally. I think they are hoping that I will become the submissive creature I tried to be, and I am a disappointment. I won't let go of who I am to be who they want me to be, and that is a good thing.

Being right is a beautiful thing. I chose an answer during a psychology class that maybe two other people in a class of forty chose, and I stuck with it. I was right, and I have to say that it made me happy. I really put an effort into my education, and it paid off in a beautiful way. Yes, I am easily pleased.
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I am really uncertain about my future. I still haven't heard back from either school, and I am panicking a bit. I always have a plan, and I always have a plan B, C, and D. This time, I don't. A part of me is terrified, but another part of me is a tiny bit excited. (Smoking is bad, and I don't usually do smoking images. I really like this image otherwise, I'm sorry if it offends.)

Cuddling with someone who loves you. In my attempt to make him happy, I am becoming a bit happier. I don't believe that we will be together forever, but I love making people happy, and I make him happy. I'm becoming more and more okay with this relationship. He tries so hard. 

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Spending four hours that you were supposed to spend studying just messing around and doing nothing. B and I met up with our books, and we were going to spend a few hours reading and discussing them. Unfortunately, I have the attention span of a flea. We ended up discussing random stuff and napping. It was beautiful. 

 New makeup! I got my order from Shiro cosmetics and will be posting a review on Friday! 

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Living more for today than for tomorrow and yesterday. I am horrible about my planning. I never do anything today because it might affect tomorrow. I really want to get my tongue pierced, but I won't because I'm afraid it will keep me from getting a job. I'm never excited for today because I have X, Y, and Z to look forward to in six months. I am so tired of waiting for my life to start, and counting down while my life flies away. I have been putting more and more effort into living in the moment, and I hope that it pays off. I want to be a more free person. I've just turned 19. I have never done anything impulsive or reckless. It is time to begin my life. 

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