1,001 Beautiful Things: Days 25-31

Doing better in something you love. This is the second term that I've taken ballet, and I really love it. The instructor complimented me on my form, and it made me smile. Will I ever be amazing? No. But I want to be the absolute best that I can be.

Being more responsible. Lately I have actually been writing down appointments and assignments in my little diary, and actually checking it and following through. It is very nice. 

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Dressing up, even when I don't feel like it. Sometimes I get a bit reclusive and distant when I'm tired/hurt. This week I've been pretty tired, but I'm still forcing myself to do my hair, nails and makeup. I actually feel better afterwards! 

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Choosing to act happy for someone else's sake. I have decided to give it another go with him. He says that I make him happy. I will put an effort in, and I will really try to be more positive whenever I am around him. Our relationship ended because he got snippy with me, and I just turned off. I will try to stay "on" this time. 

Watching my skin clear up. I have been using tretinoin cream for the past two weeks in an attempt to clear up my skin. Initially, it got really bad. It is just now starting to clear up, and it makes me happy. 

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Doing something useful when I can't sleep. I have had a bit of insomnia lately because I have been a bit worried about college applications/interviews. When I get worried, I exercise more and somehow sleep less. I used to try to force myself to stay in bed, try to convince myself that the nighttime yoga and Sleepytime tea were going to kick in soon, and I just needed to stay in bed. Now? I get up, read some blogs, do my nails, tidy up my bedroom/bathroom, something. If I am going to be awake, I'm going to be productive. 

Guess what? It actually helps me manage to fall asleep eventually! I guess the lack of pressure helps. 

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Tomorrow is the start of a new term.

I'm a bit nervous. Anyway...

• I'm going to start doing my beautiful things post once a week, on Monday. 
• I'm going to post some outfit pictures this week.
• I'm going to go for frozen yogurt tomorrow!!!! I love frozen yogurt

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Redesign

I'm currently working on the look of this page! I want my little space here to really reflect who I am, and it is taking a tiny bit longer than I expected.

I intend to have it finished by Sunday evening, and I have a few things to post shortly thereafter.

1,001 Beautiful Things: Day 25

I have this friend — I love her, but she can be a complete and utter cow sometimes. Today, however, she gave me the most unexpected unintentional compliment.

She told me that I've never been the hookup type.

I'm not the type of girl who wants to get married, and I never have. I don't like the idea of being chained. Some take this view to mean that I like to sleep around/can't commit. That isn't true, and it was nice to know that she sees that.

I like committed relationships, mainly because I don't want diseases/I really, really like cuddles. Really. I mean cuddles in an innocent way — the idea of coming home to someone after a wretched day makes me all warm inside. I just don't need to be married to be committed to someone, and I don't believe that you only have one great love in your life — I believe that you can have two or three people who you really love, and who love you with all of themselves.

1,001 Beautiful Things: Day 24

Getting an unexpected email that may or may not mean something.

I got an email to set up an alumni interview from Georgetown. I will be meeting on Friday, and I have no idea if this means that I have a fighting chance, or if it is just another hoop that they set up for everyone. I want this.

At least it means that they opened my application and didn't instantly want to throw it away?

Moving forward.

Friday was my nineteenth birthday. It was a weird year — not great, but not bad. Strange is a good word to describe it.

This is what I want to do this coming year:

— I want to be more open to love. I had my first "real" relationship this year. It was a whopping 6 or 7 months, and it was awkward. I constantly felt fat and ugly. Part of it was me, and part of it was him constantly telling me that his mum/friends couldn't stand me/found me immature/knew I was going to hurt him. I finally decided to break it off, but I learned that I need to find someone who is able to give as much as they get. I am very energetic, passionate, and intense. I want to be with someone who is my equal — willing and able to go for a five mile run, and then strip down and hop into the random creek we find along the way without being annoyed by my attention span.

I am very independent. I tend to distance myself from people when they get too close, and I want to let people in. I don't mean this in a strictly romantic sense. I want to make more friends, and if a man comes along, I want to let them get close too. I'm not saying that I want a SO, because for the first time in a long time, I'm okay with being single.

— I want to become more confident in myself, and I want to find and create an environment that allows for me to do that. To me, this involves a few different things;

-I need to be eating healthier and taking better care of my body. I'm a "bad" vegetarian. Sometimes people assume that vegetarianism involves a lot of vegetables. Not always true, and Oreos are vegan. My  body does play a role in my confidence level, and while I want to learn to love myself no matter how my skin looks or what I way, I also need to accept the facts. My family has a history of obesity, diabetes, and heart problems. I don't want to die of something so avoidable. I'm thinking about getting some sort of Zumba certification so that I could teach a few classes while I'm in school.

-I have finally started embracing my true style. In my area, people go to class in dirty pajama pants. I go to class in red lipstick and stilettos. For a while, I tried to cut back on everything, putting away the heels and lipstick. I wasn't happy, and now I'm getting back into it. The pencil skirts, the lipsticks, the perfumes, all of it.

—I want to get my passport.

—I want to travel to another country.

—I want to have an average of $1,000 in my bank account. Money is almost always tight for me, and I want to get a job that pays enough for me to keep a steady balance in my account, so that I'm not dreading car repairs/incidentals.

— I want to really embrace this blog. There are so many people out there with so much knowledge, and I have been doing nothing but take from them for so long. I want to sort of fill up my little spot of internet with my knowledge, and help other people learn from my mistakes.

Note to self:

Placing Etsy orders via Droid X: Not a good idea if any sort of message is going to be sent. Midway through my comment of "Your product names are the height of awesomeness"I managed to hit send... with just "awesomeness" going through. At least it was capitalized?

Smartphone? Only if it means making its owner look like a complete and utter moron.