SCHOOL

Winter term has officially started! I am still sniffly and coughing my lungs out, and that has been less fun. Being voiceless in a Spanish class is awesome, especially when the instructor calls on you to demonstrate and you sit there opening and closing your mouth. I did a lot of guppy impressions today! 

Otherwise, it has been good! I am really looking forward to my classes this term, and have already gotten most of this week's homework done. I can't wait to be healthy again! This thing has also killed my appetite, which means I forget to eat and end up feeling weak. Not a good thing when you are constantly on your feet. I have been drinking a ton of orange juice and taking my vitamins, and hopefully it will help fight this off. 

Last term was really hard for me. I was reeling from the rejections, and struggling to come to terms with the fact that you can do everything right, and still have nothing to show for it. This term, I feel I have started to come out of my funk. I have accepted the fact that the previous dream is dead, and I now have to start working towards a new one. I never really realized how difficult that could be until I experienced it. Learning to rebuild is a terrifying, yet rewarding task. I can't say that I have completed it, but I will. 

I know that I said I would post daily, but I'm not going to stress too much about that. I don't like scheduling posts, and I have been so miserable lately that by the time I get home from work or school, all I want to do is take some medicine and go to bed (any sort of cold medicine puts me straight to sleep. I don't take medication often, and it has made me super reactive to it.) Several of my goals have not been accomplished this week, and I'm letting them go until I feel 100% again.